remember all the things that u and i did first?

you got me, got me like this ;)

when u meet this one special person that - u know - u will never let go, never forget, that will be in your heart forever. but its just not the right time, not the right place....( maybe never will be ? ) 

- and she is like "pleaaaase this aint even jealousyyyyy she aint got a thing on meeeee, tryin to rock them ugly jeans jeans jeans" ... XD hahaha - I WANT U BACK!

BTW: Cher Lloyed is so DAMN HOT omg i love her <3 

Brown Wig ♥

Hello again : ) 

About two months ago i ordered a new wig from china...  Today i want to show you how it looks like!

i wanted to have a very long one that is close to my natural hair color. So i searched for long wigs on ebay and finally found one that looked like what i wanted. 

it finally arrived after about 3 weeks, and i was very very disappointed! 

the color is a very normal brown, not at all the blond-red-color i actually wanted and ordered. Secondly the wig is not as long as in the description!!! I didn't even want to try it on because i didn't like it at all. 

But last week a friend of me and I were talking about different haircolors on girls. She has natural brown hair and said she actually wants to have blonde hair. I personally think that brown hair suits her very well and then asked my brother about it. He knows her as well and said she is very beautiful with brown hair and should not change her haircolor! My brother said he likes brown haired girls, to him its the sexiest hair color (of course its not like he ONLY likes brown hair on girls, but he said its is favorite) !

So i remembered my brown wig... and suddenly wanted to try brown hair  hahaha....

thats the result:

 ♥ what do you think? Hot or Not ? ;))) ♥

ora ora kei

Hello gals ;)  

today i got inspired by this  blogspot in which the famous gyaru Rox talks about the appropriate age for different gyaru styles.

she wrote something about Ora Ora Kei, which i never heard of before! (well i didnt read any japanese fashion magazinges in the past two or three years) 
So i did some research on it... and wow... it totally got me! 

Ora Gal is a substyle of gyaru and you can say... its a more "gangster" kind of gyaru style.
In Japanese its 悪羅悪羅系 (ora ora kei), that means somethine like "evil smooth" but is acutally not a real word that can be used in a normal way thats not connected to the style. However it’s more the pronounciation that’s important since "Ora" is the manly sound (used by yanki) to say “hey” or “look here”.

Ora Gal is characterized by sexy clothes and a lot of black (i love black clothes!) and there is a strong interest in Bikes, Cars and Gangs. 

        

 

They like wearing hoodies, jumpsuits, leopard print/animal print, gold print, hotpants and caps, all pretty much inspired by both hiphop and rock. Strong eye makeup and nude color lips are seen often, blushes tend to go to the more orange spectrum.

For the Ora Guys its a pretty manly style, often with copped hair (sometimes lines shaved in), tattoos and ya.. the more yakuza kind of style if you know what i mean ;) those bad boyz 

I´m already in love with this style <3 as i had so much pashion for kuronba style in the past month and already felt a bit sad that i could never try it myself because you have to be extremly tanned and well... i am not XD 

 

    

Ora Gal seems to be a new option for me now and it really makes me want to buy some D.I.A. clothes hahaha...but my favorite Ora Ora Kei Models are all tanned omg... 

I even  tried on my boyfriends cap ......  XD i looked extremely stupid XDDDD OMG WHY ??? 
I want to be a cool girl too -__-;; but i am not ghetto enough *sigh... are you born with natural coolness?

 -__- shhhhh

 ♥  at least i got a cool boyfriend... hahahaha ♥

wow hotpants!

oh wow... 

i just packed my stuff for the weekend and because i´m not a very tidy person i had some difficulties finding one skirt i wanted to wear on saturday. But then... out of nowhere in my closet... those hotpants!

i bought them online this summer and when i first tried them on they were super tight, like toooooo tight,.... i never wore them. not even once XD

because ya my hips, my ass, my legs... it just didn't fit me.... i was too fat, obviously.

but those times are over now!!! OMG !!!!!!! i tried them on... and they suit me, there is even some space, they look so different on my new thinner me ^^; 

i really cant believe that its such a big difference already, i didn't realize that i lost so much weight, but those hotpants prove it. really .... the difference is like OMG i am so super happy now hahaha

that motivates me to go on doing sports.... and yes i plan on buying some new skinny-jeans ;) 

so if you read this and you want to lose weight: work for it! don't wait and sit around or try diets. just work out!!! 

♥  thanks for reading babies ♥ 

mum in heaven

hello again... 

i feel like writing about this now, very personal things, my feelings at the moment

i thought my life would go on after some time, i thought i am a strong person...

but there are times i just cant breath anymore. 
today is one of those days, i feel like i cant do it. i dont know how i can go on... when i try to focus on something, my mind goes off. i cant concentrate, i cant do anything. 

i spend my days with doing nothing. most of the time i am lying in my bed.
of course my boyfriend makes me happy and my friends are around helping me.... but when i am alone, i start wondering.... and thinking.... and all those memories come to my mind.

this song was one of the favorite songs of my mum




when i listen to this, i can see her face clearly... smiling at me... 

she always told me that she wants me to be happy, no matter what...because this is the most important thing in life. she always said i should not worry about my exam too much, i don't have to be afraid, because failing would not be the end of world for me. whats important in life is happiness... that i should never forget that 

i will never forget it.... i´m happy that i had the best mom ever

and i will promise myself, i will go on... and i will start to move on now and i will be strong and i will study hard and do my best for the things i want in my life!



                      


she encouraged me to see the positives instead of the negatives. i will never forget what my mum taught me. 

And even though i am not a religious person... i still think my mum in heaven will always be there for me, protect me and remind me of being happy

♥ ♥ ♥

skinny & falling in love

hello everyone...

havent wrote anything for some time now, i had a pretty hard time and i didnt want to write about it, so i just took a little break. Now i´m back.. yeayyyy ^^

i finally lost some more weight, this morning i had 56,5 kg which is pretty good already ^^ only 2-3 more kg to go and i´ll have the weight i want!

I have a BMI of 18 right now, thats slightly underweight already ^^; but i dont look underweight at all, i still got some fat arms and yaaaaa i dont know why that's supposed to be underweight.
like most of the girls at university are still a lot thinner than that i think.


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but now something happend that i didnt expect and that makes everything MUCH better:

OMG yes, i fell in love!!!

finally some boy appeared, i cant believe it... i didnt fall in love for such a long time and its like this all over crazy kind of falling in love! i´m feeling like i fell off a bridge or something, i get nervous like a little girl and i dont even know why this happend...  but omg when i come close to him and i see his skin and smell his scent it makes me go crazy hahaha
on top of that he is chinese... and when he speaks chinese its so freaking sexy. I mean his friend speaks chinese too, but its not sexy o_O i dont know why... he talkes in a way that i like maybe?
(his friend is north chinese and he always has this weird "儿"- sound that i dont like anyways ^^;;; )

i know... i´m crazy... but chinese sounds really sexy to me... especially when they wisper something in your ear with soft voice omg *__*

and yesterday he touched my hips, i was wearing a coat, a knitted jacket and a longsleeve because otherwise i feel cold when i go outside.. so i was wearing a lot of clothes.... but then he said "wow you're really skinny" 

OMG !!! thats the 公主-feeling ! there is is!!

♥  thanks for reading  ♥ 

gyaru best outfit contest ^^

I just joined it for fun and i don't expect to win at all, but i hope my blog will become more famous and maybe i get some new followers!

this is the pic i submitted:

 

if you want to vote for me, like this picture: click

this contest is organized by a clothing shop called "gorgeous barby" based in HongKong, and the best 3 girls will win a 200 HK Dollar coupon (about 20€)


my friends mary and jiesha took a lot of pictures of me!
it was soooo much fun and i just felt so much better after dressing up and stuff. in the past view days i didn't even put makup on because i had to learn and stayed at home -___-

here are some other pics they took (thank you girls!)