mum in heaven

hello again... 

i feel like writing about this now, very personal things, my feelings at the moment

i thought my life would go on after some time, i thought i am a strong person...

but there are times i just cant breath anymore. 
today is one of those days, i feel like i cant do it. i dont know how i can go on... when i try to focus on something, my mind goes off. i cant concentrate, i cant do anything. 

i spend my days with doing nothing. most of the time i am lying in my bed.
of course my boyfriend makes me happy and my friends are around helping me.... but when i am alone, i start wondering.... and thinking.... and all those memories come to my mind.

this song was one of the favorite songs of my mum




when i listen to this, i can see her face clearly... smiling at me... 

she always told me that she wants me to be happy, no matter what...because this is the most important thing in life. she always said i should not worry about my exam too much, i don't have to be afraid, because failing would not be the end of world for me. whats important in life is happiness... that i should never forget that 

i will never forget it.... i´m happy that i had the best mom ever

and i will promise myself, i will go on... and i will start to move on now and i will be strong and i will study hard and do my best for the things i want in my life!



                      


she encouraged me to see the positives instead of the negatives. i will never forget what my mum taught me. 

And even though i am not a religious person... i still think my mum in heaven will always be there for me, protect me and remind me of being happy

♥ ♥ ♥