remember all the things that u and i did first?

you got me, got me like this ;)

when u meet this one special person that - u know - u will never let go, never forget, that will be in your heart forever. but its just not the right time, not the right place....( maybe never will be ? ) 

- and she is like "pleaaaase this aint even jealousyyyyy she aint got a thing on meeeee, tryin to rock them ugly jeans jeans jeans" ... XD hahaha - I WANT U BACK!

BTW: Cher Lloyed is so DAMN HOT omg i love her <3 

Brown Wig ♥

Hello again : ) 

About two months ago i ordered a new wig from china...  Today i want to show you how it looks like!

i wanted to have a very long one that is close to my natural hair color. So i searched for long wigs on ebay and finally found one that looked like what i wanted. 

it finally arrived after about 3 weeks, and i was very very disappointed! 

the color is a very normal brown, not at all the blond-red-color i actually wanted and ordered. Secondly the wig is not as long as in the description!!! I didn't even want to try it on because i didn't like it at all. 

But last week a friend of me and I were talking about different haircolors on girls. She has natural brown hair and said she actually wants to have blonde hair. I personally think that brown hair suits her very well and then asked my brother about it. He knows her as well and said she is very beautiful with brown hair and should not change her haircolor! My brother said he likes brown haired girls, to him its the sexiest hair color (of course its not like he ONLY likes brown hair on girls, but he said its is favorite) !

So i remembered my brown wig... and suddenly wanted to try brown hair  hahaha....

thats the result:

 ♥ what do you think? Hot or Not ? ;))) ♥

ora ora kei

Hello gals ;)  

today i got inspired by this  blogspot in which the famous gyaru Rox talks about the appropriate age for different gyaru styles.

she wrote something about Ora Ora Kei, which i never heard of before! (well i didnt read any japanese fashion magazinges in the past two or three years) 
So i did some research on it... and wow... it totally got me! 

Ora Gal is a substyle of gyaru and you can say... its a more "gangster" kind of gyaru style.
In Japanese its 悪羅悪羅系 (ora ora kei), that means somethine like "evil smooth" but is acutally not a real word that can be used in a normal way thats not connected to the style. However it’s more the pronounciation that’s important since "Ora" is the manly sound (used by yanki) to say “hey” or “look here”.

Ora Gal is characterized by sexy clothes and a lot of black (i love black clothes!) and there is a strong interest in Bikes, Cars and Gangs. 

        

 

They like wearing hoodies, jumpsuits, leopard print/animal print, gold print, hotpants and caps, all pretty much inspired by both hiphop and rock. Strong eye makeup and nude color lips are seen often, blushes tend to go to the more orange spectrum.

For the Ora Guys its a pretty manly style, often with copped hair (sometimes lines shaved in), tattoos and ya.. the more yakuza kind of style if you know what i mean ;) those bad boyz 

I´m already in love with this style <3 as i had so much pashion for kuronba style in the past month and already felt a bit sad that i could never try it myself because you have to be extremly tanned and well... i am not XD 

 

    

Ora Gal seems to be a new option for me now and it really makes me want to buy some D.I.A. clothes hahaha...but my favorite Ora Ora Kei Models are all tanned omg... 

I even  tried on my boyfriends cap ......  XD i looked extremely stupid XDDDD OMG WHY ??? 
I want to be a cool girl too -__-;; but i am not ghetto enough *sigh... are you born with natural coolness?

 -__- shhhhh

 ♥  at least i got a cool boyfriend... hahahaha ♥

wow hotpants!

oh wow... 

i just packed my stuff for the weekend and because i´m not a very tidy person i had some difficulties finding one skirt i wanted to wear on saturday. But then... out of nowhere in my closet... those hotpants!

i bought them online this summer and when i first tried them on they were super tight, like toooooo tight,.... i never wore them. not even once XD

because ya my hips, my ass, my legs... it just didn't fit me.... i was too fat, obviously.

but those times are over now!!! OMG !!!!!!! i tried them on... and they suit me, there is even some space, they look so different on my new thinner me ^^; 

i really cant believe that its such a big difference already, i didn't realize that i lost so much weight, but those hotpants prove it. really .... the difference is like OMG i am so super happy now hahaha

that motivates me to go on doing sports.... and yes i plan on buying some new skinny-jeans ;) 

so if you read this and you want to lose weight: work for it! don't wait and sit around or try diets. just work out!!! 

♥  thanks for reading babies ♥ 

mum in heaven

hello again... 

i feel like writing about this now, very personal things, my feelings at the moment

i thought my life would go on after some time, i thought i am a strong person...

but there are times i just cant breath anymore. 
today is one of those days, i feel like i cant do it. i dont know how i can go on... when i try to focus on something, my mind goes off. i cant concentrate, i cant do anything. 

i spend my days with doing nothing. most of the time i am lying in my bed.
of course my boyfriend makes me happy and my friends are around helping me.... but when i am alone, i start wondering.... and thinking.... and all those memories come to my mind.

this song was one of the favorite songs of my mum




when i listen to this, i can see her face clearly... smiling at me... 

she always told me that she wants me to be happy, no matter what...because this is the most important thing in life. she always said i should not worry about my exam too much, i don't have to be afraid, because failing would not be the end of world for me. whats important in life is happiness... that i should never forget that 

i will never forget it.... i´m happy that i had the best mom ever

and i will promise myself, i will go on... and i will start to move on now and i will be strong and i will study hard and do my best for the things i want in my life!



                      


she encouraged me to see the positives instead of the negatives. i will never forget what my mum taught me. 

And even though i am not a religious person... i still think my mum in heaven will always be there for me, protect me and remind me of being happy

♥ ♥ ♥

skinny & falling in love

hello everyone...

havent wrote anything for some time now, i had a pretty hard time and i didnt want to write about it, so i just took a little break. Now i´m back.. yeayyyy ^^

i finally lost some more weight, this morning i had 56,5 kg which is pretty good already ^^ only 2-3 more kg to go and i´ll have the weight i want!

I have a BMI of 18 right now, thats slightly underweight already ^^; but i dont look underweight at all, i still got some fat arms and yaaaaa i dont know why that's supposed to be underweight.
like most of the girls at university are still a lot thinner than that i think.


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but now something happend that i didnt expect and that makes everything MUCH better:

OMG yes, i fell in love!!!

finally some boy appeared, i cant believe it... i didnt fall in love for such a long time and its like this all over crazy kind of falling in love! i´m feeling like i fell off a bridge or something, i get nervous like a little girl and i dont even know why this happend...  but omg when i come close to him and i see his skin and smell his scent it makes me go crazy hahaha
on top of that he is chinese... and when he speaks chinese its so freaking sexy. I mean his friend speaks chinese too, but its not sexy o_O i dont know why... he talkes in a way that i like maybe?
(his friend is north chinese and he always has this weird "儿"- sound that i dont like anyways ^^;;; )

i know... i´m crazy... but chinese sounds really sexy to me... especially when they wisper something in your ear with soft voice omg *__*

and yesterday he touched my hips, i was wearing a coat, a knitted jacket and a longsleeve because otherwise i feel cold when i go outside.. so i was wearing a lot of clothes.... but then he said "wow you're really skinny" 

OMG !!! thats the 公主-feeling ! there is is!!

♥  thanks for reading  ♥ 

gyaru best outfit contest ^^

I just joined it for fun and i don't expect to win at all, but i hope my blog will become more famous and maybe i get some new followers!

this is the pic i submitted:

 

if you want to vote for me, like this picture: click

this contest is organized by a clothing shop called "gorgeous barby" based in HongKong, and the best 3 girls will win a 200 HK Dollar coupon (about 20€)


my friends mary and jiesha took a lot of pictures of me!
it was soooo much fun and i just felt so much better after dressing up and stuff. in the past view days i didn't even put makup on because i had to learn and stayed at home -___-

here are some other pics they took (thank you girls!)




 

White teeth! with Crest supreme professional whitening strips

Now as promised my
♥  review of "Crest supreme professional whitening strips"♥

i finished using them some time ago and now i can tell you how they worked out for me ;)

end of july i bought 28 whitestrips from an ebay seller (sparkly_teeth), i got them for 27€ shipping included.

i started using them in the beginning of august and finished after 8 days.

they came in 14 small packages, inside is a transparent plastic strip:

the upper strip is a bit longer, and obviously for usage on your upper teeth line, the lower one for lower teeth line!

you have to use 2 packages a day, one in the morning and one in the evening. Its recommended to leave them on for 30 min, and i wouldn't leave them on much longer because it starts to destroy your dental enamel (in german: Zahnschmelz ;) )

here is a pic while having strips on:

(disgusting much... i really hate that feeling)

i used Sensodyne Pro Zahnschmelz after i took the strips out and once a week i brushed my teeth with Elmex Gelee (which i love now and continue to use!)

But never the less after 3 days my teeth got really really sensitive and even worse: when i heard loud or strange sounds like a chair scratching on the floor my whole body shiverd and my teeth started to .. prickle i dont know how to describe this feeling, but its really really terrible!

so i skiped one evening and one morning and finished after 8 days.

but in the end i really liked my teeth, it worked so well, they got really shiny and bright!

here is the result:

scared by this super huuuuge pic of my teeth? haha sorry for dry lips, i wanted this pic to look as natural as possible. and its not edited!

when using the strips i was soooo annoyed and i thought i would never ever use them again, but now i love my white teeth and i want them to be that wait forever.. so after 6 month i will definitely buy them again!

i started to drink coffee again because on tuesday my final exams starts and i have to learn a lot and get up early in the morning.... and i think after 2 weeks my teeth started to go back to their previous semi-white-yellow :(

but my friends say they are still fine and white... don't know maybe its only in my imagination?

NOTE: if you have really yellow teeth you should use them for 14 days as its recommended by crest! i only wanted to use them for 7 days, because my teeth were not that yellow!

losing weight!

Hello everyone :)

Today i got up at 7 in the morning... TO GO JOGGING! yes.. believe me, i started to go jogging regularly some time ago. Before i was like the most untalented person in sports ever, i was as unathletic as an 150 kg women -___-;

now i´m more like an 100 kg women :D hahahahahaha

the reason for my unexpected change of mind was that i noticed i couldn't even run fast enough to catch the bus when i´m a bit late, even the bus stop is only a few meters away from my house. I´m still young, so there is still time to change!
I also want to live more healthy.
And of course i want to lose weight like almost every girl in this world.

(i took this pic about 3 weeks ago, already lost 2-3 kg)

AND WOW !!! i´m feeling SO GOOD now, i improve so fast and every time i go jogging i can go a bit further or reduce the time i need for a certain course.

i´m doing better and better now and this motivates me so much. I never liked sports before in my life, i always thought it only hurts and i´m not talented anyways, so I'd rather don't do it. - sweating --> bahhh 

i actually did exercise before i went to china in 2010 because i wanted to look hot for my boyfriend, so i went to the fitness studio of my university very often. but i kind of hated it and it cost me so much time and really really stressed me out. i lost so much weight back then because i forced myself and didn't eat, tried out many different diets etc. 

(Ahbao, me, my exboyfriend)

Until i had 55 kg (I´m 177cm tall, this is a BMI of 17,6 normal BMI for my age is 19-24!)


but when i came back to germany i started eating like crazy because i was unbelievably sad... i really loved him and i didn't want to leave china, i didn't want to leave him and his nice family...

so i gained weight again... more than i ever had.

and now i started jogging and it really helps me losing weight in a more healthy and reasonable way. i don't want to be thin in 3 weeks, i don't expect that. 
It's a slow process, but i have time and i want my weight to constantly be around 57 kg

i now have a BMI of 19,5, still feeling a bit fat ._. but i think i will become thin again!

baby apricot & trip to the dam lake

This morning i found baby apricot at the supermarket! 

So small & sweet... i totally love them. 

Reminds me of those baby mango i love to eat when i´m in China. I miss baby mango so much X___X so sad we cant buy it in germany ...

look how small they are next to the nectarine

In the afternoon we all went to a lake pretty near from our dorm, my friends were swimming and i just enjoyed the free time lying in the grass, watching airplanes passing by

what a beautiful day!

Going out & new stuff

♣ Hello everyone ~

Today i want to tell you about some new stuff i bought recently :)

But first i want to show you my outfit of tuesday night!
I dont go to clubs often, i just dont have much time because i have to learn a lot for my upcomming exams... but this tuesday i went out with 2 friends! Wednesday was free because of a holyday, so yeayyyy time to go party!



 





    i was wearing a short black dress & black high heels, 
    my Dior bracelet i bought in japan 5 years ago and two 
    other bracelets.
    I painted my nails metallic pink ♥  i like it a lot :)
    (strange background is my kitchen la... )

    and i´m really proud of my long hair :))) it took my a     
    very long time to grow it, so i´m very happy that it has 
    an acceptable length now, even without extensions!











 

closer pic of my makeup that day:

gold & orange eyeshadow,
fake upper lashes,
rose blush &  a bit lipgloss

notice my uneven bangs? -___-::
yes... well.... i cut it myself la X___X

not enough time to go to the hairdresser, 
so i had to do it myself.

i.. will.. never.. ever... do... this... again ! -__-:

well at least i know now... i´m definitely not talented at cutting hair!







i liked my outfit & makeup that night, but nevertheless... not sucessfull. german boys kinda dont like me .but thats ok. i´m not searching for a boyfriend right now. i must concentrate on preparing for my final exam!

well there is this one cute guy... but he is a bit younger than me and i guess i ruined it already as he doesnt write me back -___- but maybe he is just too shy or anxious? (problematic much... as he is not only younger but also... nah i cant tell you ;D its my scret lahhh!!!)



ok now.. here is what i found online a week ago,... ok... JieSha found it and i copied her and bought it as well *_~



super cute overall with rose-pattern! i got it for 7€, its so comfy and i just love it! ok overalls really tend to make you look fat in some ways... but i still like it ♥__♥  sorry for the heart over my face ^^; i didnt wear makeup, i took this pic to show it to my friend in first place and later decided to post it on my blog as well ;)

now - as promised - something about my teeth whitening:  
i´m already super super super annoyed by wearing those strips 2 times a day for 30 min. for real... how can anyone sleep with this thing inside their mouth??? its horrible!!! it tastes extremly bad and i cant do anything while wearing them because i start to drool like a freakin dog.  i put tissues inside my cheeks (attempt to make it similar to the dentist method) and watch TV to distract myself. (doesn't work well though... i check the time ever 30 sec -_- ) While pulling the strips out after 35 min (i really cant take it any longer) i feel like i have to throw up and immediately brush my teeth. i hate it. but i still want to have white teeth. so i really really hope that my teeth are going to be white after those 7 days, today is day 3, still 4 days to go. i think my teeth are a little bit whiter, but not so much others would notice. 
i still think the best method of bleaching your teeth is letting your dentist do it. It costs about 300 € but i think its totally worth it, as you go out of the dentists office after 3 hours and your teeth will be perfectly bright and shining.  sadly i dont have much money now as i still am a poor student -___-
ok i will show you before & after pics at the end of my experiment in about a week. 
  ♥ thanks for reading  ♥

how to deal with losing a friend?

These days i thought a lot about my realtion to others.

Am i a nice girl? Do other girls want to be friends with me? 

I only have a selective amount of friends that i meet outside of university. Now one of my closest friends moved to miami and one stopped talking to me (i still dont know the reason, but i guess its because of her new boyfriend).

So i now have 2 friends here in germany that i meet almost every day because we live in the same student dorm ^_^; and one who lives in Bonn, so we dont meet often, but we chat every 1-2 weeks.

Another friend (now not a friend anymore), came to my parents house a few days ago and said very mean things to me. like, i was an arrogant bitch, and that i will be all alone one day because of my nasty and stupid attitude. He talked about my other friend who stopped talking to me, and said it's all my fault. He was angry, because i accused him of lying to me about my ex-bf, he obiviously did, very simple to prove.
i dont like to be lied on, but i told him before i´m not angry about this and to lets just forget about it. But then he attacked me, without warning he came over to insult me. 

I was so shocked i immediatly kicked him out of the house. He then said we are no longer friends. i only replied "fine, and now please leave my house". 

This day i`ve lost a friend again.

So i seriously have to think about my own attitude towards other people. 

This one friend who stopped talking to me once told me i´m a self-centered, arrogant person. It's true that i like talking and i like to be in the center of attention, but i listen to my friends as well, and i´m always honest and i try to give them advice when they ask me about my opinion. 
When she needed me as a friend, i was always standing beside her, she slept over at my place when she felt lonely and sad and i always tried to be a good friend and comfort her.
(i feel like i have to explain myself x.x )

Am i really that bad? I dont want to be a bad person and i DO care about what others think about me ~__~

i live in constant fear that I'll say (too much or) something that makes people think I'm weird or make them dislike me.



I admit that i dont like most of the people i get to know. Honestly... i dont know why.... but i know that i´m not an "easy to be with"-person either. 

But why do i lose my friends? And why is it so hard for me to find new (true) ones? 

Maybe i´m not nice enough, not gentle enough. My mum often tells me to be more gentle, she says that a "dragon" like me will never find a husband.

I will really try to improve my personlity and to be more friendly. fighting!!! 加油~~

but i came to the conclusion that i already have nice friends who love me for who i am! and that is most important in this world! i will concentrate on being nicer to the ones who love me!


  - I dont want you to love me, IF YOU DONT WANNA LOVE ME FOR ME -



.... i still worry a bit... how am i going to survive in my future working environments? 

and i really miss my friend Miss-K-SuperLuv...

graduation

yesterday i went to the graduation ceremony of one of my closest friends!!    


i cant believe she already graduated T__T (we were in the same semester at university) i´m so proud to have a friend like her, so intelligent and beautiful, fun to be with and so grown up on the same time. It was amazing to see her walking down the stairs in her stunning red dress and shaking hands with the professor, i had tears in my eyes. Now after almost 5 years at university, she is the first of us who graduated and got the fruits of her hard work.  
                                                                              


We all dressed up in nice clothes to celebrate with her. Chrissy (another friend who is living with us at the students dorm) helped us with our hair and i was in charge of the make up ;) 





My styling:  ♥ Cute hair bow (looks like a big ribbon out of hair) on the back of my head (Chrissy helped me to fix it!), babyblue dress with black and gold belt, black high heels & leopard print nails 
i had my favorite lashes on that i bought in shanghai last time i went to china!  


we had a really nice time together and i´m really really happy that i have such wonderful friends! 


    i love you girls!!! ♥ ♥ ♥




next time: 


♥ blushes i use and fake lashes

shoes, shoes, shoes

welcome to my new blog!!
I´m happy you found the way all through the internet and got here :)
so this is it... my new blog! i decided to start blogging again and this time it´s going to be all about gyaru, beauty, fashion, china/asia (and of course about my life hahaha)
please enjoy~


 (click to listen to music while reading)
My frist blog post on my new blog will be about.... SHOES !!YEAY <3 every girl loves them and so do i i want to share some pic's of nice shoes with you that i´ve found on some random chinese websites 
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 inspiration to me:



♥♥ i like their thin legs and hair styles very much ♥♥

 some more shoes: 
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~ Next time ~


♥ I will tell you about my plan on bleaching my teeth! I already ordered something :)
♥ Post about blushes i use and fake lashes
♥ Speed dating!!!!